Meeting Your Needs

When I decided to follow my heart and open myself up to help others, it came when the so called moment of doubt met with uncertainty and let me tell you, it was a place that most of you do not want to be in. I felt that God brought me to a familiar place in order to reach me and COACH me so that I can put the worries of acceptance and understanding to rest in my mind so that I could become a beacon of light for all of the lost or hindered souls out there. There was not an ear nor was there the friends or the fans cheering me on saying "Go Carlos, Go!" I remember a so called friend telling me that the only way that I can become a coach was if I had millions of dollars or I was Successful..... That is when the record stop playing and I asked myself, "What quantifies success?" That is when I can say that I had to take an ugly look at what was on the inside of me that I needed to fix in order to help others. This is when the entire movie of my life had been brought to my attention. I was frozen by the acceptance of others in a place that was so dark that even a cave dwelling creature would not even tread. I had to reach out for something that was far greater than me and what others would scoff or even shun me if I even brought the word into a conversation.... "GOD". God, yes that right I said it!

After apologizing to myself first for the torture that I had put myself through for years in trying to understand why I could not please everyone, and trying to find acceptance from even family, I finally got it! I had to reach outside the scope of what I had once thought was supposed to work for me and dig into what I always knew was a sure thing and that was me!!!!!! I have to take responsibility for all of my short comings but most importantly I had to forgive myself for being so hard on me and worrying about those whom didn't want to be a part of my life. I literally had to wake up on morning in the midst of all that was going on around me and say I'm good. Even though I knew that proclaiming victory over my doubts was the first step, I knew that I had quite a ways to go but I was open for the challenge and now here I am.

The psychological and spiritual evolution into my new endeavor was meant for me so that I can help others meet there needs. I once read in the BIBLE (that is right I have read that too) that the message will come from men and women outside of the normal scope of what people tend to look at when identifying with spirituality. I understand the struggle and I have accepted the struggle but what I didn't accept is the fact that you have to stay in the struggle in order to live. Listen people, we must focus on meeting our own needs first and then we must foster the courage to take life on a live the way that God has made for all of us.

FOOD is intended for those whom may lack the spiritual diet and may have a craving for wisdom! I may not be a Creflo Dollar but I will take Carlos Penny anytime if it helps someone else meet there needs! And to my friend whom seemed to think that success is measure by what you have, while you are a slave to the wage war, I have stepped into a freedom that has allowed me to fill the void in many lives, and that to me is success. I'm transparent and my life hides behind no walls. I'm free now......

Every time I read my post I get the chills because I'm living my dream!

BE THE DREAM!!!!

FOOD